• all that we are is the result of what we thought
• why, because we are wheat we reharse, so why not write out a script we want to follow rather than just some generated script from past experiences
• so here’s where we get stuck
• as a kid when people got mad at me, the world fell down because i was recruited into believing that my younger siblings would somehow have a worse life if i made a mistake. Now it was probably never worded like that but i was kids, when I heard, hey do the right thing, if you do wonrg, they’ll wrong, i heard .. you have responsbility for how your siblings turn out
• so I became quite resourceful in rehearsing in my head what wold happen if someone was angry ast me, and when i was 8, 12 and 15,itmight have been a useful skill
• as an adult not so useful, the rehearsing became a habit and it allgot tangled up in that when i thought of any situation, I would rehearse what to do if someone got mad at me, and being on edge became my go to response when meeting people